the outcome of the red pill

Sun, 23 May 2004 17:56:07 GMT

i'm a repulsive larval fuck. i think with my dick, because that's where most of the cells that should be in my brain are located. i deeply value the pursuit of empty sensory shallowness and providing vast irritation to individuals who don't fall into my narrow definition of the way people should be. i blather constantly about how analytical i am, but the most profound thing i've ever analyzed was probably a sitcom. like most unevolved bits of plankton, i ridicule and demean what i cannot understand. oh, and i have the rtestosterone/aggresion drive of a fucking neanderthal!

obviously, somenoe else wrote this as it clearly exceeds the subjects' vocabulary level.

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 20:05:14 GMT

well my life is becoming this huge ball of lies and betrail and I dont think it will ever change at least It dosent seem like it will so anyway how is the rest of the world good I hope better than me would be that at least good thing come to thoes who waight whoever wrote that was on crack and thats a fact this life sucks and im ready to end it so if im never heard from again on this journal again you know what has happened im dead or so far away that the internet is not there yet good by
sin. ghuido

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 00:44:59 GMT

I feel like the world is crushing down on me sometimes and I dont know which way to turn to but then I see thats not happening and I then see that every thing is oik

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 01:34:51 GMT

im not sure how much I can hold on i this world in my present form im so missunderstood its crazy why cant anyone understand me will anyone ever please god help me .

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 01:23:14 GMT

now im not ok again why is it that people never seem to do what they say there going to do not some of the time all of the time im just not use to that but I will get use to it someday but I just have a hared time with it it makes me more mad than anything go I wish that I did not have to feel upset or mad ever again I truly do if you have to take me than do so please.

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 00:39:57 GMT

well im doing a little better I am starting to wright to this journal and it really is helping me out with the troulbem with feeling allone I feel like I will always have someone to talk to I guess thats the point right someone post a coment k?

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 17:30:46 GMT

I dont unrerstand why it is that when wolen up I am the last thing that matters and then when needed for something the most needed like you wake up and all of the world wants nothing to do with you then you go to a job of some kind and then you are needed why is it that people cant be worth more than they are able to do for someone

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 05:00:27 GMT

well I guess knowone loves me I have been here a whole 2 1/2 hours and know one has left anything yet but owh well it is usual to me for it to be this way I guess I will get use to it right I am jacks lack of attention that will never arive .

the real feeling

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 00:36:48 GMT

I have been under the impression that I donot belong in this world when I was born I was declaired dead and they brought me back from that and from then on things have not been the same my life has been nothing but caos . I have been shot in the face and not died and hit by cars and still nothing .
I feel like jims unusefull life and I dont think that it will ever change Ifeel like god has forgotten about me like I dont exist to him this is a little something I WROTE ABOUT MY LIFE AND LIFE ALL AROUND.

I use to never care about the things I did and all the things on my adgenda listed never really existed it was sicknen the life I was livin not givin a care to share at whoevers dispair or dissmay day after day why do I play this game now insain snortin cane just to stay in pain some days I could not git up with a crain now thats a real shamed WITH NO WORKS SURROUNDED BY JURKS inside and out with no doubt of the justicication of our own little world or nation that were facen mow were pacen wantin it to end back when it first started to begin ,but the weakest individual could turn out to be invencable but dont forgit the princapal that keeps you in line now thats when you really start to sparkle and shine I refuse to be on this list of people being dissed so I say come in start livin again we cant handle it all were much to small caws when we try to handle it all were bound to fall maby I need to step back and let god take the bat .
this is how I truly feel I feel like I am in a place where I dont belong I am with someoune but I dont feel like they truly want me to be somethimes btu it has been this way from the start of my life sometimes I wish that all of hells fire could raise up and consume all of the earths form so knowbody would ever have to hurt again this world is crule and I dont see it ever changing any time soon maby I should run for presadent then make some changes ,changes they dont want to see happen changes that would take all people out of there controle spots and then renounce my spot and give it back to the people like it belongs tru freedome the government sucks and always will fuck thoes basterds up in there nice political offices and homes all nice andneet it sucks I use to be that way I know fuck george w bush I hope someone kidnaps him and sticks needles under his finger nails sure he sends people over to other places to help them but only for his own gain not to help them fuck that all people of power should be casted into a jet fuled firey hell to burn to death .